disclaimer: I do not care what you think about these thoughts, ideas or opinions. just wrote them down at the moment. Ofcourse they could change, did change or are changing. Just wanted to put some words down at the moment to spur thoughts and ideas.
Partially, the reason I create art is just simply to express myself, which is the most basic (and seemingly bullshit) answer out there for creating. But it just makes sense when you can put yourself into something no matter how big or small, the material or medium, whatever the case, just putting yourself into the creative process in order (or not) to tell some story or message or just express some idea, feeling, emotion, anything is incredibly important. I think everyone does that in some way or another either through your work at a job how you choose to dress yourself or how you do anything really. It all means something to ourselves and is meant to be judged and addressed by others. The important part is to understand that we judge ourselves and that is the most important part, but to also understand that other people will always undoubtedly judge you. I think people say not to judge other people but I find that is absolutely a part of being human, having the ability and comprehension to judge someone, to put yourself in their shoes, to see them for what they are or how you believe they are is absolutely human. That is part of the human consciousness and that consciousness in everyday life seeps into our own subconsciousness. It can certainly be a slippery slope, the whole judgment thing, but I believe it is beyond important to human society and culture. It is an incredible complex thing.
So making art for me is making myself vulnerable (in theory, sometimes) and just expressing myself or my thoughts or ideas so that someone else can make their own judgement or opinion about me or my artwork into their own lives. Many times I do not like to tell people why I created something so that they can create their own story or message that makes sense to themselves without my input, making the art theirs. Obviously not everyone will like or understand something that I do, but I want to have the ability to create something that may just simply be beautiful. Other times I want it to tell a story or represent something more than just an image at the same time. My dream is to have my art be out in the public and people see it and first just feel something, hopefully positive, but not everything is meant to just be positive. Sometimes it is meant to be reflective upon negative moments in order to learn and move from those negative moments into positive ones. It is also important to me to have my art just simply show and tell people of my own story. A message like to keep working and going after what motivates and makes you enjoy life to the fullest. Because to me I am on a never ending search for the things that I enjoy the most in life and to fill my life with those things (not only things but feelings and emotions and all that shit too). But also to understand that I struggle with an immense amount of negative stuff in my life and for the most part I do not like to talk about them. Maybe because I am embarrassed by them or because I do not like to bring up negative stuff. I try to take those negatives in my life, which I tend to dwell on too much and beat myself up internally about for quite awhile, and turn them into positives by laughing about them or learning from them. I am trying to get better and forgetting and moving on from the negatives while learning from them. Thats what life is all about. Trying and, most likely, failing and moving on. Always moving forward and learning and helping others once you have some semblance of a grasp so that you can put out positivity to help others because it is all about giving. I want my art to symbolize what ever someone wants it to symbolize. Whether they like the simple beauty of it or they know me and my story and what I am all about and want that message. Or if they strongly dislike me but like the painting or like it simply for the value (if it may ever have any value to anyone else). It is important to understand life is full of ups and downs undoubtedly. You must find yourself through the chaoticly ordered life we live (self awareness). And always use the baseline as a place you know who you are and what you are about (it will change ofcourse) but when there are lows know that it will pick back up and when there are highs embrace and enjoy them but know they will come back down.
Lots of random thoughts pouring out of my head at the moment but felt like i rarely ever write them or express my thoughts to anyone and you cannot always get my thoughts and ideas through my art. So there you go. Cheers